Journal.Of.A.Fucking.Loser

Finly the truth

2004-05-11T03:43:42Z

Ok its time i jus wuz honest with all u so here it goes.

First off im a fuckin loser and i have no friends. i annoy everyone around me and now they fuckin hate me cuz im such a prick to evryone all the time. i lost all my friends cuz i started acting like a dick and even tho they tried to tell me to stop i didn listen cuz im really stupid. i kno im not hot or anything and i kno how much i fuckin suck and if i listend to my friends when i had them i wouldnt have got this way. i started acting like a dick cuz i was actully jealus of them cuz they always have fun an they always do stuff but since i pushed them all away i cant be part of that anymore and they all see how much of a fuckin loser i am. thas why i started wearing tight clothing. i kno i look stupid in it and i dont even have a nice body to show off but im really desprate for attention and i seriusly dont thnk anyone will notice me otherwise unless im being an anoying fuck tords them. but im so fuckin stupid cuz that just made them not like me more and now the only thing i have are chicks on the internet who dont even kno who i really am and im sorry but i lie alot and im not really as nice as u think im a complete asshole and the only reason i talk to all u is cuz i hope that some day ill meet one and we can have sex cuz i really wanna lose my virginity even tho no one should go as low as to have sex with me id be better off with some fat ass woman thats like a million pounds cuz shed be desperate too. i dont really like any of u that post on my lj and the only reason i talk to u is cuz ive fucked away all my friends. i dont really like any of u at all. and the last thing is the other reason i like wearing clothing its cuz im really gay and i hope that some guy besides that fuck chris will come out to me and i wont be alone. if any of u at all try to talk to me about this on msn or aim im going to pretend it never happened cuz i dont want to talk about the fact that im so stupid. now all of u get lost i hate all of u fuckers go.

dancehappyclwn @ 2004-05-07T07:33:00

2004-05-07T12:35:52Z

WHOOOOOO!!! SOUND AND THE FURY TONIGHT I CANT WAIT. WHOOOOOO!!!

dancehappyclwn @ 2004-05-04T15:41:00

2004-05-04T21:05:17Z

whoooo concert in foxtown friday, im gona go see sound and the fury wit kelly and matt so im happy cuz it will be my first actual concert so im happy bout that. god im so fuckin bored im thinking about goin and seeing a movie but i have no one to go see it wit and all the fuckin movies suck here so i may jus go like sunday and see kill bill vol.2 cuz i love vol.1, it kicked so much ass. im gona go over to tristan's wednesday and watch: kill bill vol.1, the thing, and the directors commentary for donnie darko.im thinking of getting the other side of my lip pierced but im not sure what do u think. well i guess ill end this and go do something like drive around for the hell of it but i have no idea, well...
XcyaX

dancehappyclwn @ 2004-05-02T13:24:00

2004-05-02T19:02:26Z

ok so here is what went down saturday. first i get up at like 7:30 and than i get ready to take my shower and my dad is like "u have to go to ur gmas to take one cuz there is no hot water" and i was like "SON OF A BITCH". after the shower kelly arrived after a while. then we went to the mall and bought some stuff and i bought a candle for my mommy for mothers day and a card. that was the worst experience ever, smelling candles that is. my nose was all like "no more...plz no more i beg u stop *dies*". ok after that we came home and talk for awhile as kelly pulled apart the string from her hoody, then we watched mad tv till 6:30 and then went to the concert. we got there and it was like this guy singing crappy country/oldies and we were all like "SHUT THE FUCK UP". after that the first band came on, and i tell u they sucked, the bassist sucked and the drummer sucked and so did the singing. it pissed my off cuz like the drummer would do the same thing ever time the bastard, and the bassist was off wit the beat all the damn time. ok now this is where the fun begins, some lil fuck on a bike ran the fucking thing into a trash can which piss us off and left it there to go play hacky sack. matt was "should i take his bike" and we were like yes so he did and the lil fuck that owned the bike and his "posse" cased after matt. then matt came back and sat down and the lil fucks came over and mothed matt and wanted to fight wit him. eric was all like "u dont want to mess wit matt" cuz matt knows karate and stuff. then the lil fucks ran off and then kelly poured a coke all over the kids bike. then they came back and tried to start a fight wit matt again and kelly got up in their faces and like slaped the shit out of this one kid it was great we were all laughing our asses off. then they went and got this seth kid and we was all gona beat all of our asses and kelly was all like ok "lets go" and stuff and the guy was like "im not gona hit a grrl but i have like 400 gfs that would fuck up". then things cooled down and we were trying to find stuff to do so then matt, kelly, james, eric and some other kid were like "bowling" we get there and it was all closed till july 4th cuz they were fixing it and stuff *sigh*. then we decided to go to day light donuts and i got a cappuccino and burned the piss out of my mouth and now i cant taste nething :(. matt and the others played chess and stuff. then we like went home the end.
i left out alot of stuff but kelly tells it better so here http://www.livejournal.com/users/xletxmexdownx/2477.html

dancehappyclwn @ 2004-04-27T07:26:00

2004-04-27T12:36:30Z

y.day was fun, lance, matt and i went bowling it was kick ass sept for the fact that i suck at it. ok heres what happend, jus cuz im bored enough to do this now. we get there and i call matt and tell him that we r at the bowling alley, ao lance and i went in and played pool till he got there. matt came in limping cuz he said "i was goin to my car and step in a hole in my yard and i here a pop".then after like 2 games of pool we bowled, and matt ended up winning even wit his disablity. that is about all that happend last night, it was a kick ass monday :P.now i have to work on my socio project that is due tomorrow. im doing a power point on child abuse and havent even started so i figured that i can finish it in like cnt cuz i have 3 hrs in there. there is also like a "concert" at a church in town on sat., its gona be lance and his band doing, war all the time, cosmonaut, and a thrice song and there will be like one more band there ive never heard so it should be fun, oh and i guess im doing something wit kelly that day to. well that is about it so
XcyaX

SAVE ME

2004-04-23T12:28:23Z

i dont want to go to school...some one save me from school...neone plz

p.s.-my friends said he can make a pteradactyl out of a paper clip and a rubber band, but i dont think he can :P

dancehappyclwn @ 2004-04-22T08:59:00

2004-04-22T16:13:01Z

ok y.day i said if have some pics and im to lazy to load them so ill jus give u a link to my dilly account so here r the crappy pics:
http://thedilly.com/view.user.wtd?id=238345;PHPSESSID=aa2b0ed19637342ccf2ad2af4d79ec3d

dancehappyclwn @ 2004-04-21T23:41:00

2004-04-22T05:15:35Z

i got this from miss jackie pacheco
cuz i was bored and thought this would be ez cuz she answered almost everything the way i would have so :P

.name. coleman
.age. 18
.sex. male
.martial status. single
.hair color. blonde
.eye color. green
.sexual preference. striaght
.ethnicity. german

{favorite...}

.band. A static lullaby, finch, poison the well. and many more(what she said :P)
.song. apathy is a cold body-posion the well. take on me-aha. dream to make believe-armor for sleep. Eriatarka-mars volta
.singer. idk
.food. pasta (which is what she said)
.book. i need to start reading again :S hahah
.magazine. musicians friend
.sport. idk ive been watching alot of hockey lately so...hockey
.movie. donnie darko. fight club.seven samurai
.flower. all flowers ^_^
.animal. pteradctyl cuz they can fly and i can ride on them and they eat ppl too...hehehe
.candy. nething
.tv show. late night wit conan obrien.
.tv station. dont have one :S
.video game. zelda
.anime. ne as long as it has robots and explosions in it
.stuffed animal. dont have one :'(
.country. not america
.state. ne realy
.color. red and black...and pink
.weather. cloudy wit a nice warmish breeze
.season. spring
.time of day. night
.month. april
.quote. laughter kills sadness
.journal. mine cuz its all mine and stuff

{family}

.living arrangement. mom. dad
.how many people are in your family. alot and most of them r old ppl
.do you ever have family get togethers?. every sunday we have lunch at me gma's
.your favorite cousin. katelyn cuz i grew up wit her as a child :P
.your favorite family member. my brother tim
.your least favorite family member. mom.dad
.is family important to you?. indeed it is, but some times i wonder
.do you get along with your parents?. nope
.siblings. 25
.ages, if any. tim(27 somthing) kenny (25)
.do you get along with your siblings?. ya we get along great
.pets. no *sigh*
.if yes, what kind?.

{beliefs}

*do you believe in...*

.God. no
.the devil. no
.heaven. no
.hell. no
.reincarnation. yes
.karma. yes
.miracles. yesh
.luck. some times
.fate/destiny. yes
.magic. indeed
.someone for everyone. yes
.religion. no

{thoughts}

.suicide. stupid
.homosexuality. dont care, what ever works for them
.depression. i am there
.sex before marriage. if u wana
.abortion. pro-choice
.boredom. *stabs it wit a knife*
.war/terrorism. wars r fun ^_^
.love. its wonderful, that is if u can get it
.life. piece of shit

this was stupid(indeed jackie)

{relationships}

.sexual preference. striaght
.do you have a crush, boyfriend, or girlfriend?. sorta
.what is their name?. starts wit a j and ends wit an e...but im a stupid moron
.how old are they?. 18
.hair color. Brown
.eye color. brown
.do they drive?. Yes
.if yes, what kind of car?. a saturn
.how long have you been going out with this person?. like 6 or 7 months
.do you love him/her?. yes. would do nething for her if she asked it
.do they love you?. idk
.best memory with this person. the week my parents were gone
.least favorite memory with this person. when she cried
.girls i've kissed. 1
.first date location. where ever she wants
.best date location. the same
.ideal date. concert (she said that too, which makes this ez on me)
.first kiss location. in car
.best kiss location. some where nice and cozy
.where do you like to be kissed?. ne where jus as long as i get it :(
.ideal kiss. i dont care as long as its a kiss
.have you ever had sex?. no
.if yes, where?. n/a
.if not, are you planning to anytime soon?. maybe

{music - yay or nay}

.pop. nay
.rock. yay
.rap. nay
.r&b. nay
.ska. yay
.emo. yay
.hardcore. yay
.country. nay
.classical. yay
.foreign. nay
.hip-hop. nay
.dashboard confessional. nay
.yellowcard. yay
.the early november. yay
.good charlotte. nay
.blink-182. nay
.simple plan. nay
.thrice. yay!
.afi. yay
.less than jake. nay
.goldfinger. yay
.the distillers. yay
.something corporate. yay
.reel big fish. yay
.phish. nay
.all-american rejects. nay
.from autumn to ashes. yay
.the casualties. yay
.led zepplin. yay
.the sex pistols. yay
.pennywise. nay
.thursday. yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
.the used. yay
.anti-flag. yay
.the white stripes . yay
.the offspring. nay
.the starting line. nay
.finch. yay!!!!!!!!!
.senses fail. yay!
.system of a down. yay
.mudvayne. nah
.taking back sunday. yay!
.the ataris. nay
.trust company. nay
.hoobastank. nay
.evanescence. nay
.linkin park. nay
.new found glory. nay
.allister. nay
.NOFX. yay.
.motion city soundtrack. yay
.slick shoes. idk
.bouncing souls. yay
.alice in chains. yay
.gob. nay
.nickleback. nay
.puddle of mudd. nay
.rancid. yay
.favorite song of all time. I already said
.favorite band of all time. i said it

{this or that}

.coke/pepsi. pepsi
.vanilla coke/vanilla pepsi. vanilla coke
.chocolate/vanilla. Vanilla
.black/white. black
.light/dark. dark
.sun/moon. moon
.rain/snow. rain
.sunshine/rain. rain
.summer/winter. summer
.spring/autumn. spring
.sunrise/sunset. sunset
.car/suv. car
.cellphone/pager. Cellphone
.radio/tv. tv
.vhs/dvd. DVD
.cd/tape. CD
.glasses/contacts. glasses
.morning/night. night
.ocean/pool. Pool
.skiing/snowboarding. never done
.skating/skateboarding. Skateboarding
.oranges/apples. apples
.strawberries/bananas. strawberries
.penguins/polar bears. polar bears
.mcdonalds/burger king. neither
.pizza hut/dominos. pizza hut
.wine/champagne. wine

{have you ever...}

.stole/shop-lifted. yes
.sped. yes
.smoked. yes
.drank. yes
.gotten drunk. no
.gotten drunk and passed out. no
.gotten drunk and couldn't remember anything. no
.done drugs. no
.weed. no
.marijuana. what the fuck? (indeed jackie)
.shrooms. no
.lsd. no
.ecstasy. no
.crack. no
.cocaine. who ever wrote this shit is fucking stupid! (u said it miss jackie)
.heroin. No
.inhalants. no
.skinny dipped. yes
.gave someone a lap dance. no
.had sex. this was asked (yes miss jackie,this guy is a dumb ass
.snuck out of the house. yes
.ran away from home. yes
.tried to commit suicide. no
.used someone. yes
.cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend. no
.got caught 'doing something'. no
.embarrassed yourself. yes
.share an embarrassing moment. no

{end}

.what time is it. 12:12 a.m.
.are you glad this is over. fuck yes *stretches*

dancehappyclwn @ 2004-04-21T12:48:00

2004-04-21T18:39:38Z

there was no hot water in the shower today and that makes me mad. i had expected today to be bad for that reason, but to my surpize it hasnt been all that bad. today i get my car back from the shop, it got all the belts and hoses changes and a tune up and also the cd player should be working now so im happy ^_^. well that is about it, i took some pics of myself this morning so ill be posting those then i get home :P well
XcyaX

i got this from jackie ^_^

2004-04-20T13:53:09Z

-DESCRIBE / TELL—
[three words that sum you up]: shy, lonely and unattractive.
[jewelry worn daily]: a white and a black wrist band and my black hoody
[wallet]: a black and orange fossil fuel wallet
[coffee]: idk, ill drink ne as long as its good
[shoes]: pumas
[cologne/perfume]: i dont really use ne but when i do i use spark, not alot jus a lil.
[clothing you have on]: i jus woke up so i have on my wrist bands and blue undies

—MIXED QUESTIONS—
[wishing]: that ppl didnt live so far away
[after this]: shower
[talking to]: no one
[eating]: nothing, i wish i had a banana or an apple but we dont have ne :(
[fetishes]: idk nething that a grrl does :S
[some favorite movies]: donnie darko, fight club, matchstick man, punch drunk love
[something you're looking forward to]: when i find someone
[last thing you ate]: a burrito
[something you’re afraid of]: never finding someone
[if you could have any animal as a pet]: a pterodactyl
[cities you wouldn’t mind moving too]: ne place but here
[some favorite foods]: nething wit noodles in it cuz noddles is the shit
[something -or someone- you wish you could understand better]: i wish i could understand love
[miss someone you haven't seen in a long time]: yes i miss some one so much, but ive never met them *sigh*

—DO YOU—
[like candles]: sometimes
[like company]: indeed
[believe in soul mates]: yes i sure do
[believe in love at first sight]: i do now
[believe in forgiveness]: yes, at times
[want to get married]: yesh i sure do
[want to have kids]: 1 or 2
[ever want to adopt kids]: idk

—IN THE LAST 24 HOURS HAVE YOU...—
[cried]: no
[bought something]: no
[gotten sick]: no
[sang]: yes all the time, like now *sings take on me*
[eaten]: yes
[been kissed]: no
[felt stupid]: sure do
[wanted to tell someone you love them, but you didn't]: yes
[talked to an ex]: no cuz if i did shed be dead
[talked to someone you have a crush on]: yup
[had a serious talk]: sorta
[missed someone]: yes
[hugged someone]: no
[argued with a parent(s)]: no
[dreamt about someone you can't be with]: yes

—SOCIAL LIFE—
[best girl friend(s)]: ummmm...dont have ne friends that are grrls
[best guy friend(s)]: idk i have alot of friends jus not best friends
[boyfriend/girlfriend]:no
[hobbies]: music
[pager/cell]: i have a cell
[are the you the center of attention or a wallflower]: wallflower
[car you drive]: pontiac grand am
[would you rather be with friends or on a date]: a date :S
[job]: not yet
[attend church]: no
[like being around people]: someitmes

—PERSONAL—
[who is your role model]: nope
[pet peeves]: nosy ppl
[ever liked someone you can't be with]: sure have and it hurt like a bitch
[ever wanted to get revenge on someone cause they hurt you]: not for myself but others
[cried over the opposite sex]: yes
[your favorite physical appearance]: idk
[are you happy with yourself]: not at all
[what plans do you have for the future]: college
[who do you really hate]: i hate alot of ppl
[who's your most trustworthy family member]: my gma ^_^

dancehappyclwn @ 2004-04-19T06:33:00

2004-04-19T12:46:10Z

------------------------------- STARTING QUESTIONS ---------------------------------

** Full Name **: Coleman Younger Cumbie (stupid middle,last, and first name)
** Birthday **: 03/08/86
** Zodiac **: Pieces
** What time is it? **: 6:35 a.m.
** What is the date? ** april 19, 2004

------------------------------- GENERAL INFO----------------------------------------

** Time: ** 6:36 a.m.
** Name: ** Coleman
**Age: ** 18
** Birthday: ** 03/08/86
**School: ** Nevada High School
** E-mail: ** inxlikexflint@hotmail.com
** Eyes: ** green
** Hair: ** blonde
** Height: ** 5'7"
** Shoe Size: ** like a 9 or somthing
** Who lives with you? ** mom and dad
**When is your bedtime? ** when ever i feel sleepy
----------------------------------IN THE LAST 24 HRS--------------------------------

** Cried: ** nope
** Worn jeans: ** nope
** Met someone new: ** yup
** Done laundry: ** nope

---------------------------------HAVE YOU EVER--------------------------------------

** Missed school because it was raining: ** no, sure havent
** Put a body part on fire for amusement: ** no
**Kept a secret from everyone: ** yup
** Had an imaginary friend: ** of course ive had tons of imaginary friends but they all keep dying :(
** Ever been in love w/ a friend: ** nope
**Cried during a Movie? ** yup
** Had crush on an teacher? ** like in the 3rd grade
**Been on stage: ** yup long time ago
** Cut your own hair: ** nope

---------------------------------------------FIRSTS---------------------------------

**First best friend: ** idk
**First car: ** ege white old ass VW bug
**First real date: ** movies and that was it :S, im so lame
**First real kiss: my ex
**First real break-up: my ex
**First screen name: Monger_demi-god (long time ago when i was a we lass and into like games that involved cards and stuff bad times)
**First self purchased album: idk ive bout all my cds so i cant remember
**First funeral: my gpa foz :'(
**First pets: a frog ^_^
**First piercing/tattoo: my first piercing was my ear :P but it is no more
**First credit card: havent had one yet
**First true love: every thing is kinda fucked up wit me so idk
**First enemy: im sure i have alot of ppl that hate me
**First big trip: north carolina

----------------------------------IN THE LAST 2 WEEKS ------------------------------

**Cried: ** yup
**Cut your hair: ** nope
**Worn a skirt: ** no
**Been mean: ** idk maybe
**Been sarcastic: ** yup cuz its fun when its wel placed
**Talked to someone you have a crush on: ** yes *sigh*
**Hugged someone: ** nope
**Fought with your parents: ** actually no
**Got in an argument with your best friend: ** yes
**Laughed until you cried: ** yes when leo locked his keys in his truck
**Played Truth or Dare: ** no
**Watched a sunrise/sunset: ** no
**Went to the beach at night: ** no
**Spent quality time alone: ** yes, cuz i am alone, im always alone :(

----------------------------------------ABOUT YOUR FRIENDS--------------------------

** Laughs the weirdest? ** idk they all have a pretty similar laugh
** Makes you laugh the most? ** all of them there isnt a time when im not laughing wit my friends
** Who have you known the longest? ** tristan
** Loudest? ** me
** Is the quietest? ** none
** Is the weirdest? ** alll
** Is the funniest? ** alll
** Who is the moodiest? ** idk
** Biggest player? ** idk
** Who do you usually go to about all of your problems? tristan some times or jackie *sigh* cuz tey r both ez to talk to
** Who comes to you? ** idk
** Do you have a crush on someone? ** yes
** Do they know? i guess

-----------------------------WHO DID THESE THINGS LAST------------------------------

** Called you **: my gma
** Slept in your bed **: me
** Saw you cry ** my pillows
** Made you cry **: loneliness and what happened friday
** Made you laugh **: matt
** You shared a drink with **: no one
** You went to the movies with **: leo
** Went to dinner with **: no one
** Bought you something **: my mom cuz shes all getting me stuff for when i move out
** Sent you an email **: lj comments :S

---------------------------- MORE --------------------------------------------------

** What time is it now? ** 7:24
** Black or white? ** black
** TV or movie? **Movie
** Cat or dog? ** both
** Walmart or target? ** niether
** Spring or Fall? ** spring
** Sun or rain? ** rain
** What are you gonna do after this? go to school
** What was the last meal you ate? ** a banana
** High school or college? ** neither
** Are you bored? ** yes
** Last TV show you watched? ** hockey
** Last movie you saw in theaters? ** hellboy
** Last noise you heard? ** music
** Last smell you smelled? ** my clean-ness

--------------------------FAVORITES-------------------------------------------------

** Shampoo: ** fructis
** Favorite Color: ** red and black
**Day/Night: night
** Summer/Winter/Fall/Spring: ** spring cuz of the breezes and the rain :)
** Lace or Satin: ** idk
** Favorite Cartoon Character: ** no one
** Favorite Fast Food: ** wendy's
** Favorite Advertisement: ** the ibm commercial where the guy is like "*grabs butta knife* MAYBE I SHOULD RIP OUT THE HAED DRIVE" (im such a nerd *shrugs*
** Favorite Movies: ** fight club, donnie darko, punch drunk love
** Favorite Drink: ** neithing that tastes good ^_^
** Favorite sport: ** idk ive been watching hockey alot lately and it so much fun to watch

What are you...
** Wearing: ** a white and black wrist bands, my ASL shirt and my pumas and my hoodie
** Thinking about: ** jackie i guess
** Listening to: ** dream to make believe-armor for sleep (such a pretty song)

-------------------------------HAVE YOU EVER----------------------------------------

** Kissed someone? ** once
** Said "I love you" and meant it? ** yes
** Gotten into a fight with your Dog/Cat etc?** yah its fun to play fight wit kitties ^_^
** Been to New York? ** no
** Been to Florida? **no
** California? ** no
** Hawaii? **no
** Mexico? **no
** Europe? ** no
** Canada? **no
** Danced Naked? ** yup ever morning :P
** Skinny dipped? ** once
** Stalked someone? ** sure y not
** Snuck out? ** yah
** Wished you were the opposite sex? ** nope
** Had an imaginary friend? ** yes, but they r all dead now :(. it wasnt my fault i swear

---------------------------------- RANDOM ------------------------------------------

Are you bored? yes
Are you lonely? very
Are you happy? no
Do you drink? not realy
Do you smoke? ew no
Who named you? my dad
When was the last time you showered? like 10 min ago
What color pants do you have on right now? shorts like a brown
What song are you listening to right now? ah-ha-take on me
What color is your shirt? black
What is right next to you? emptiness
What is your computer desk made of? wood
What are the last 4 digits in your phone #? my cell - 0693 and home is-5060
Are you eating anything? nope
How's the weather right now? warmish
What did you do last night? nothing at all i was so lonely :(
How are you today? sadish

--------------------------------- EXTRAS--------------------------------------------

** Do you have your license? ** yah
** What book are you reading now? ** child called it (its so sad)
** Nicknames: dont have one
** Hair Color: ** blonde
** Height: ** 5'7"
** Pets: ** what ever i find dead on the side of the road
** Siblings: ** 2 older brothers
** Have you ever been so drunk you didn't remember that you were drunk: ** nope
** Taken any illegal substances: ** nope
** Gone out in public in your pajamas: ** no
** Played ding-dong-ditch? ** nope
** Streaked? ** no
** Kept a secret from everyone: ** yes
** Wanted to hook up with a friend/date them: ** no
** Did something illegal? ** no
** Did you get caught? ** no
** Gotten arrested? ** no
** Gotten a ticket for something? ** no
** Stalk someone? ** maybe
** Prank called someone: ** nope

-----------------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN--------------------------------------------

** Yourself: ** no
** Santa Claus: ** no
** Tooth Fairy: ** no
** Destiny/Fate: ** sometimes
** Angels: ** no
** UFO's: ** no
** God: ** fuck him
** Bigfoot: ** yes

-----------------------------FRIENDS AND LIFE---------------------------------------

** Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend? ** no *cries*
** Do you like anyone? ** yah, alot
** Who have you known the longest of your friends: ** tristan, or RBIII
** What's the best feeling in the world: ** cuddling, kissing, and being in love
** Worst Feeling: ** being alone
** Worst fear: ** deing alone
** Time now: ** 7:42

-------------------------------LASTS------------------------------------------------

Last car ride: mine
Last kiss: my gma
Last good cry: last friday
Last library book checked out: nothing
Last movie seen: donnie darko
Last beverage drank: water
Last food consumed: banana
Last crush: jackie
Last phone call: none
Last time showered: like 30min ago
Last shoes worn: my pumas
Last cd played: DCfC
Last item bought: donnie darko
Last annoyance: my lonely existance
Last disappointment: myself
Last time having sex: havent
Last time wanting to die: now
Last time scolded: when i got my lip pierced
Last shirt worn: my asl shirt
Last website visited: lj :P

bad friday good saturday

2004-04-18T14:24:01Z

ok here is a quick summary of y.day in a chaotic form:

1.went to kansas city wit leo.
2.then got lost in kansas city (which was fuckin fun as hell for some reason, and we had two go through the worst to parts of kansas and luckily we survived).
3.stoped at a walgreens and asked for directions(did u know that fuckin walgreens doesnt have a fuckin public bathroom, well ya do now).
4.found the independence mall then leo locked his keys in the truck which was fuckin huilarious.
5. went to hottopic and got a poison the well shirt and and atdi shirt and one of the chicks that works there was all hitting on leo, hahahah.
6.then we went to the sam goody/suncoast, and i bought donnie darko, which is a stud fuckin kick ass movie i loved it i highly recommend it(thankies jackie and jenny for suggesting i watch it ^_^).
7.then we went out to the locked car and leo was trying to force open the back sliding window, and this guy was like "u guys need a hammer" and we were like "yes" and then leo smashed out the back window which was fuckin kick ass, there was glass all the way up in the front seat.
8.then we left for richmond to see some of leos old friends. we made like an action type movie that was like a dream or something stupid like that. it was like ninjas and soldiers, idk it was dumb and i was the first one to die so i was happy that i didnt have to be in it afta that but w.e it was fun neways.
9.then leo, james, and i one of leos friends drove all the way back down to nevada, and again we got lost but finally got home, and the first thing i did was watch donnie darko ^_^ i love that movie.

on f.day i got home and cried, i know it makes me sound pathetic, but i dont care and like all of saturday i could only think of one person, damn me

dancehappyclwn @ 2004-04-15T12:59:00

2004-04-15T18:41:57Z

i feel sad *sigh* :(

dancehappyclwn @ 2004-04-14T07:08:00

2004-04-14T12:38:33Z

i borrowed this from no_name87

LAYER ONE:
-- Name: Coleman
-- Birth date: 03-08-86
-- Birthplace: Nevada, Mo
-- Current Location: Nevada, Mo
-- Eye Color: green
-- Hair Color: blonde :P
-- Height: 5'7''
-- Righty or Lefty: right
-- Zodiac Sign: pisces
LAYER TWO:-
-- Your heritage: german im sure there is more than that but idk
-- The shoes you wore today: my blue pumas ^_^
-- Your fears: being alone so im pretty scared now
-- Your perfect pizza: something from woodys cuz their stove fire pizza is that shit
-- Goal(s) you'd like to achieve: going to canada,leaving nevada, getting a good job out of college, and gettinga nice house wit a yard so i can get a puppy (punches) and a kitten (kicks)
LAYER THREE:
-- Your most overused phrase on AIM: hahahah
-- First thoughts when waking up: its cold brrr
-- Your best physical feature: i have no idea
-- Your bedtime: when ever i feel like it
-- Your most cherished memory: all the time i spent wit my gpa before he died
LAYER FOUR:
-- Pepsi or Coke: pepsi
-- McDonald's or Burger King: niether
-- Single or group dates: single
-- Adidas or Nike: niether
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: lipton
-- Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla
-- Cappuccino or coffee: doesnt matter
LAYER FIVE:
-- Smoke: = nasty
-- Cuss: all the fuckin time
-- Sing: in the shower and if i feel like i need to
-- Take a shower everyday: every morning
-- Have a crush(es): indeed i do
-- Do you think you've been in love: i am i guess
-- Went to go to college (or want to): am (or ham)
-- Like(d) high school: is a waste of time
-- Want to get married: yesh i would love to get married but i dont think ill find neone willing to marry me
-- Believe in yourself: sometime but not always
-- Get motion sickness: nope not at all ^_^
-- Think you're attractive: i dunno...if i was id think id have someone by now *sigh*
-- Think you're a health freak: no i eat what ever i find
-- Get along with your parent(s): if by "get along" u mean stab to death wit a box cutter then bury them in ur back yard then :|...sure ^_^...
-- Like thunderstorms: aw they r the best they make me feel good, but they r better when i have someone wit u *sigh*
-- Play an instrument: guitar
LAYER SIX:
In the past month...
-- Drank alcohol: no
-- Smoked: nope cuz that is nasty
-- Had Sex: nope
-- Made Out: noperz
-- Gone on a date: one
-- Gone to a club: nope
-- Drank a martini: no
-- Eaten sushi: no
-- Been on stage: no
-- Been dumped: no
-- Gone skating: no
-- Made homemade cookies: if by "make" u mean eat all of them, then yes
-- Gone skinny dipping: no
-- Dyed your hair: noperz
LAYER SEVEN:
Ever...
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: HAHAHAHAH yes it was the best :P i loved it
-- If so, was it mixed company: no only one beautiful beautiful lovely girl
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: nope
-- Been caught "doing something": what do u mean by "doing somthing"
-- Been called a tease: no
Gotten beaten up: nope
-- Changed who you were to fit in: nope cuz fitting in is stupid
LAYER EIGHT:
-- Age you hope to be married: have no idea, i still have to find some one so i dout it will happen
-- Numbers and Names of Children: 2 maybe and as for the names i have no idea :S
-- Descibe your Dream Wedding: idk what ever "she" wants
-- How do you want to die: in a battel to the death for my love who is being held hostage by a band of blood thirty pirates
-- What did you want to be when you grow up?: a pirate then a ninja, then an owl and the list keeps going and going :P
-- What do you actually do?: i go to school and do nothing
-- What country would most like to visit?: canada at this moment

dancehappyclwn @ 2004-04-11T14:08:00

2004-04-11T19:17:31Z

I MISS MY STAR SO FUCKIN MUCH
i wish she was her wit me that would be the best thing ever. i couldnt stop thing of her like all day today and every time i did my heart would race. i hate this cuz i cant be wit her and it hurts me inside. i need plane tickets bad and i need them now like right now that would make me so happy. *sigh* i want to talk to her but she isnt on and i have to get off cuz my mom is a bitch cuz she grounded me from the computer cuz of my lip, witch is the worst punishment ever :(.i should be on around 9 or so when they are dead...i mean asleep...foreverz. i hate easter cuz it is the worst easter ever cuz i cant even be wit the one that i truely love even tho that has nothing to do wit easter...at all. but neways, i miss my star wit all my heart and i hope she had a beautiful easter and i love u so much.

♥->I LOVE U WIT EVER INCH OF MY BODY MY STAR

dancehappyclwn @ 2004-04-10T08:59:00

2004-04-09T16:17:13Z

i feel so sad today
the only person that could cheer me up isnt here. this is the saddest i have ever been, im sitting here listening to our song and missing her. i cant stand not to talk to her
this is the worst i cant stop thinking about her :(
i hope i get to talk to her today it would make me feel so much better
that is all i have to say is that, i miss u i miss u so *cries*
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i got this from brittyg320

Find your birthday and then find your tree. This is really cool!

Dec 23 to Jan 01 - Apple Tree
Jan 01 to Jan 11 - Fir Tree
Jan 12 to Jan 24 - Elm Tree
Jan 25 to Feb 03 - Cypress Tree
Feb 04 to Feb 08 - Poplar Tree
Feb 09 to Feb 18 - Cedar Tree
Feb 19 to Feb 28 - Pine Tree
Mar 01 to Mar 10 - Weeping Willow
Mar 11 to Mar 20 - Lime Tree
Mar 21 only) -Oak Tree
Mar 22 to Mar 31 - Hazelnut Tree
Apr 01 to Apr 10 - Rowan Tree
Apr 11 to Apr 20 - Maple Tree
Apr 21 to Apr 30 - Walnut Tree
May 01 to May 14 - Poplar Tree
May 15 to May 24 - Chestnut Tree
May 25 to Jun 03 - Ash Tree
Jun 04 to Jun 13 - Hornbeam Tree
Jun 14 to Jun 23 - Fig Tree
Jun 24 (only) - Birch Tree
Jun 25 to Jul 04 - Apple Tree
Jul 05 to Jul 14 - Fir Tree
Jul 15 to Jul 25 -Elm Tree
Jul 26 to Aug 04 - Cypress Tree
Aug 05 to Aug 13 - Poplar Tree
Aug 14 ! to Aug 23 - Cedar Tree
Aug 24 to Sep 02 - Pine Tree
Sep 03 to Sep 12 - Weeping Willow
Sep 13 to Sep 22 - Lime Tree
Sep 23 (only) -Olive Tree
Sep 24 to Oct 03 - Hazelnut Tree
Oct 04 to Oct 13 - Rowan Tree
Oct 14 to Oct 23 - Maple Tree
Oct 24 to Nov 11 - Walnut Tree
Nov 12 to Nov 21 - Chestnut Tree
Nov 22 to Dec 01 - Ash Tree Dec 02
to Dec 11 - Hornbeam Tree
Dec 12 to Dec 21 - Fig Tree
Dec 22 (only) - Beech Tree

YOUR TREE ( in alphabetical order)

Apple Tree (the Love)
- quiet and shy at times, lots of charm, appeal,
and attraction, pleasant
attitude, flirtatious smile, adventurous, sensitive,
loyal in love, wants
to love and be loved, faithful and tender partner,
very generous, many
talents, loves children, needs affectionate partner.

Ash Tree (the Ambition)
-- extremely attractive, vivacious, impulsive, demanding, does not care for
criticism, ambitious, intelligent, talented, likes to play with fate, can
be very egotistic, reliable, restless lover, sometimes money rules over the
heart, demands attention, needs love and much emotional support.

Beech Tree (the Creative) -- has good taste, concerned about its looks,
materialistic, good organization of life and career, economical, good
leader, takes no unnecessary risks, reasonable, splendid lifetime
companion, keen on keeping fit (diets, sports, etc.).

Birch Tree (the inspiration) -- vivacious, attractive, elegant, friendly,
unpretentious, modest, does
not like anything in excess, abhors the vulgar, loves life in nature and in calm, not very passionate, full of imagination, little ambition, creates a calm and content atmosphere.

Cedar Tree (the Confidence) -- of rare strength, knows how to adapt, likes
unexpected presents, of good health, not in the least shy, tends to look down on
others, self-confident, a great speaker, determined, often impatient, likes
to impress others, has many talents, industrious, healthy optimism, waits
for the one true love, able to make quick decisions.

Chestnut Tree (the Honesty) - - of unusual stature, impressive, well-developed
sense of justice, fun to be around, a planner, born diplomat, can be irritated
easily, sensitive of others feelings, hard worker, sometimes acts superior, feels not understood at times, fiercely family oriented, very loyal in love, physically fit.

Cypress Tree (the Faithfulness) -- strong, muscular, adaptable, takes what life has to give but doesn't necessarily like it, strives to be content, optimistic, wants to be financially independent, wants love and affection, hates loneliness, passionate lover which cannot be satisfied, faithful, quick-tempered at times, can be unruly and careless, loves to gain knowledge, needs to be needed.

Elm Tree (the Noble-mindedness) -- pleasant shape, tasteful clothes, modest demands,
tends not to forgive mistakes, cheerful, likes to lead but not to obey, honest and faithful
partner, likes making decisions for others, noble-minded, generous, good
sense of humor, practical.

Fig Tree (the Sensibility) -- very strong minded, a bit self-willed, honest, loyal, independent, hates contradiction or arguments, loves life and friends, enjoys children and animals, a social butterfly, great sense of humor, likes idleness and
laziness after long demanding hours at work, has artistic talent and great intelligence.

Fir tree (the Mysterious) -- extraordinary taste, handles stress poorly, loves
anything beautiful, can become depressed at times, stubborn, tends to care for those close to them as well as helping strangers, rather modest, hard worker, talented,
unselfish, few sexual relationships, many friends, doesn't want foes, very reliable.

Hazelnut Tree (the Extraordinary) -- charming, sense of humor, very demanding but can
also be very understanding, knows how to make a lasting impression, active fighter for
social causes and politics, popular, quite moody, sexually oriented, honest, a perfectionist, has a precise sense of judgment and expects complete fairness.

Hornbeam Tree (the Good Taste) - of cool beauty, cares for its looks and condition,
good taste, is not egoistic, makes life as comfortable as possible, leads a reasonable and disciplined life, looks for kindness and acknowledgment in an emotional partner, dreams of unusual lovers, is seldom happy with its feelings, mistrusts most people, is never sure of its decisions, very conscientious.

Lime Tree (the Doubt) - intelligent, hard working, accepts what life dishes out, but not before trying to change bad circumstances into good ones, hates fighting and stress, enjoys getaway vacations, may appear tough, but is actually soft and relenting, always willing to make sacrifices for family and friends, has many talents but not always enough time to use them, can become a complainer, great leadership qualities, is jealous at times but extremely loyal.

Maple Tree (Independence of Mind) -- no ordinary person, full of imagination and originality, shy and reserved, ambitious, proud, self-confident, hungers for new experiences, sometimes nervous, has many complexities, good memory, learns easily,
complicated love life, wants to impress.

Oak Tree (the Brave) -- robust nature, courageous, strong, unrelenting, independent, sensible, does not like change, keeps its feet on the ground, person of action.

Olive Tree (the Wisdom) -- loves sun, warmth and kind feelings, reasonable, balanced, avoids aggression and violence, tolerant, cheerful, calm, well-developed sense of justice, sensitive, empathetic, free of jealousy, loves to read and the company of sophisticated people.

Pine Tree (the Peacemaker) -- loves agreeable company, craves peace and harmony,
loves to help others, active imagination, likes to write poetry, not fashion conscious, great compassion, friendly to all, falls strongly in love but will leave if betrayed or lied to, emotionally soft, low self esteem, needs affection and reassurance.

Poplar Tree (the Uncertainty) -- looks very decorative, talented, not very self-confident, extremely courageous if necessary, needs goodwill and pleasant surroundings, very
choosy, often lonely, great animosity, great artistic nature, good organizer, tends to lean toward philosophy, reliable in any situation, takes partnership seriously.

Rowan Tree (the Sensitivity) -- full of charm, cheerful, gifted without egoism, likes to draw attention, loves life, motion, unrest, and even complications, is both dependent and
independent, good taste, artistic, passionate, emotional, good company, does not forgive.

Walnut Tree (the Passion) - unrelenting, strange and full of contrasts, often egotistic, aggressive, noble, broad horizon, unexpected reactions, spontaneous, unlimited
ambition, no flexibility, difficult and uncommon partner, not always liked but often admired, ingenious strategist, very jealous and passionate, no compromise.

Weeping Willow (the Melancholy) - likes to be stress free, loves family life, full of hopes and dreams, attractive, very empathetic, loves anything beautiful, musically inclined, loves to travel to exotic places, restless, capricious, honest, can be influenced but is not easy to live with when pressured, sometimes demanding, good intuition, suffers in love until they find that one loyal, steadfast partner; loves to make others laugh.

saturday--lets do something guys..something fun..anybody up for something?

dancehappyclwn @ 2004-04-09T07:18:00

2004-04-08T14:43:43Z

what i humped today:

1-2 monitors
2-tristan
3-juices hat and pad of paper
4-spite remix bottle
5-snickers
6-bag of chips
7-screw driver
8-book
9-head phones
10-my computer desk
11-a wall
12-my chair
13-bathroom counter
14-my hand
15-sound card
(tristan jus humped me)
16-stapler
17-15 cds
18-box of paper clips
19-my shoe
20-1 single paper clip
21-leos laptop
22-door
23-printer
24-bottle cap
25-wall drop
26-bag of paper plates

and its not even 2nd hr!!

what i would like ro hump:
jackie
100 dollars in pennies
and an old lady in an iron lung

ok that last one is wrong so, no to that

HAPPY HUMP DAY TO ALL-APRIL 8th

2004-04-07T23:50:33Z

ok todays plans got fucked, it was supposed to be hump day but we forgot
so we decided to make an offical hump day that would be tommorrow.
SO EVERY APRIL 8th IS HUMP DAY FROM NOW ON THIS IS THE NEW TRADITION SO JOIN IN IF UD LIKE AND SPREAD THE WORD

whoo tomorrow im gona hump untill i hurt

well i thought id tell u that even tho no one cares

well
XcyaX
♥-> i luff my jackie ^_^

(P.S. u have to write down what ever u humped on that day tooo ;) so have fun and dont hurt urself jus for fun to see how has humped the most stuff :P)

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im so lame
every time tristan sent me a pic of his animal is i felt like i need to show him their true form so here u go

dancehappyclwn @ 2004-04-07T07:08:00

2004-04-06T14:33:21Z

i snaked this from xtdx18v

A - Age: 18
B - Band listening to right now: finch cuz tristan is listening to them right now
C - Career future: network administrator
D - Dad's name: Tom
E - Easiest person to talk to: jackie, lance, tristan, mainly :P
F - Favorite song (current): doll face- a jealousy issue
G - Gummy Bears or Gummy Worms: both :D they r both equally the best
H - Hometown: nevada, mo
I - Instruments: guitar
K - Kids: maybe like 1 or 2 when i find the right grrrrl if i ever do
L - Longest car ride ever: from here all the way to north carolina thats about like 3 days :P
M - Mom's name: Beth
N - No. of people you slept with: 0
O - Orientation: straight like something...straight
P - Phobias: i fear bum bum bummmmmm...the needle eek :|
Q - Favorite Quote: "if u cant fuck it burn it to the ground"
R - Reason to smile: hot grrrls :D
S - Song you sang last: letters to u-finch its such a lovely song ^_^
T - Time you wake up: 6:20
U - Unknown fact about me: idk there really isnt nething interesting about me
V - Vegetable you hate: none :P i love them alll
W - Worst habit: biting my finga nails :S
X - X-rays you've had: 1 off my thumb when i broke it
Y - Yummy food: sloppy joes mmm mmm
Z - Zodiac sign: pisces

dancehappyclwn @ 2004-04-04T17:14:00

2004-04-04T22:16:22Z

i got my lip pierced saturday and it hurt like a bitch for a sec then it was all fine after that sept for a little sting :P
well here r the pics:
http://www.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewPicture&friendID=1421686&friendName=coleman&Mytoken=20040404151407

yay my very own pirate...fetus <_<

2004-04-01T19:36:38Z

I adopted a cute lil' pirate fetus
from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus!

dancehappyclwn @ 2004-04-01T12:48:00

2004-04-01T19:26:54Z

dancehappyclwn @ 2004-03-30T15:14:00

2004-03-30T21:23:59Z

this week has been boring as hell as was last week.nothing to interesting has happened cuz i have no life what so ever.heres what is going down this week: (im gona start with friday cuz nothing has or will happen on the other parts) friday: parents leave for new orleans for the final four girls basket ball thing so im gona be home by myself from this friday to the next and on this day HELLBOY comes out so im gona go see that...by myself like i have every other movie. saturday: im gona go get my lip pierced on this day. im either going by myself or with leo cuz he was gona go get his pierced tooo so it should be fun either way.sunday: this will be filled with me not doing nething at all ill prolly wake up and sit in front of the computer all day and ill prolly be realy bored so somebody plz talk to me this day so im not so bored...im pathetic

XcyaX
♥

dancehappyclwn @ 2004-03-30T08:47:00

2004-03-29T16:57:24Z

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2004-03-28T03:58:51Z

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